It's been years seen i miss her a lot but when i was about start a new one i was too rush, then i get nothing in the end... So come back to the same again, Hiz... felt sorry for that girl that i was too rush with i think she will never talk to me / sms me le so... i had made up my mind for now onwards... i will never love any one any more I will rater let people to love me then i love other cause i had lost my feel of love years ago were that girl just left me like this... that girl who makes my devilness up to the top... i will kill because of her i can smoke also because of her i drink also because of her ... raa.... felt very ... never mind ...
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Types of wine and beer that i drink...

 Finlandia, Carlsbere,Royal Challenge Whiskey, ChivasWissik,Gunness Tiger

There was once a girl that went in to my heart... But now still no news of her... And it has been years till now i still thinking of her... She was once in my house and she was the first girl that went to my house and sleep, went she sleep and i looked at her see her sweet sleep i felt happy cause i think she is the someone that i had been looking for the girl with Innocence in her life that girl who says "you are the every first of my life, you given me the first birthday card were my family didn't give me, you given your care were my family didn't give me, you are the first person that hold my hand were my family didn't even do that." on that day i knew she likes me, she also say that to me, but she said that " Even if i like you but i'm scare that jie(her god sister/my god mei) also like you.". Then i did not say anything but in my heart i already accepted you... Till now my emotionally went up so high is because of you do you know everyday went i got nothing to do i will miss you, every now and then I've been waiting for you...??? Do you know how much i miss you and my heart had die 3years ago cause of you...??? But i think you had forgotten me, hiz... Years of waiting, missing, crying and emotionally just because of you do you know?... I think nope ba... How could you remember someone for so long? I guess you had found someone better then me le ba... If that's so then I'll accept the fate and congrats you ba...

But now the worst thing had come 2 weeks ago my grandma just pass away... Remember of her bring me to school, bring me to shopping, bring me to had a walk and more... but now it had all come to an end, i very unhappy cause every time i had to see you on bed waiting for the day that you could bring me to had a walk again but it had been 8 years plus le... And it will never happen again... Hiz... I was hoping to bring one girlfriend to let you see but, i didn't make it, everything turn to an ash le... Now even cannot have an Chinese New Year even i had ...

What The Hell

She was once with me now no more,
She was once soring went i was asleep now no more,
She use to bring me and my brother to walk walk now no more,
She is now gone and i don't know what to and CNY is coming Valentine's Day also coming I also got no date, plus my grendma just pass away hiz... My emotionally had to wen up to the top le... No more happiness anymore don know who will date me out.. Hiz... dame stress wanna go to hell liao!!! ha!!!!!!!!

Days pass now left 10 more days to POP... So happy... But still got sad thing over my heart, that is my Family Problem... The family problem is about my dearest grandma that stay with me, she now, hole body even her eyes all turn yellow... Heard one of my frenz saying that was a cancel then i was very scare to lose my grandma cause she was with me seen i was young, the family-ship with me and her was very deep that no one can tell... But back to my POP is at Marinna Floating Plat Front, and they say we are the last batch to go there... Then happy P.O.P. hor!!!

Date 101110

Today is our pay day so happy, but cannot get money. Still angry cause my battery still not found yet. The battery was stolen at 091110. Don't know why now a days those stealer don't wanna do the right thing, but do this stupid thing that we the human don't like. But buck to topic again today is a very good day, cause got more admin time. Now time is 1923Hr no one at the bunk I feel very nice cause no one will do things stupid, but i still miss one girl and that is the girl that i lost contact with, for so many years seen sec3 the first day i saw her till now i still can not forget her face, i miss her allot, I'm waiting for her to come back and find me... Every time went i emo or should I say my emotionally goes up, the first thing I think of is her... Remember years back when she runs aways from her home... When I know her from my Gan Mei, the first time I ask her to be my Mei, she never say anything then she say " OK ". Then I was so happy then that time is I still don't know she run aways from home... Then got one time she ask me out then i say OK then I go meet her... Then suddenly my Gan Mei tell me she runs aways from home and the parent comes and wanna find her, but she don't wanna go back... then she wanna me to take she to a save place the keep bagging me then i say "OK if u tell me later why u don't wanna go back", then she say "OK". So I helped her to go to a save place... The i ask her " why don't u go back???.", ten she tell me this "at home she only can reads books, every time wanna go out also cannot, plus cannot even watch TV and my parent had break up...", then I helped her , but that time i don't know why i helped her now then i know this is call love... but i'm the one who makes her home cause that time the parent of the girl had call the police then i got no change but to send her home... but got many time i felt to do so cause she still don't wanna go back... but i still remember she said this before ' I'm the first guy who know her every thing, who can give her warm, who hold her hand, who kissed her forehead, who sing her birthday song and every thing that her parent never give it to her before... '.

Days pass just book out of NS don't belief that i got true one month of the training... but when i come back that time i was still thinking of my long lost Mei ... Hiz... years and years pass still cannot forget her even if so... i will still get her feeling back to the pass were i first met her... At CCK near LOT 1 ... every day missing her thinking of went will she come back... i did to her one thing before we last met that is "my door will always open for you, and i will be waiting for you...". Till now i still keeping my this promises that i met to her, but will she remember?... Hope she did so... Hiz... Emotionally of mine is getting more and more each day... No happy at camp at all the food down there taste suck it's the same food every week... And every day doing 5BX at the morning, the got swimming, 2.4 run, road march, strange training, AGT and mani mani more... Now 0000hr at there got to sleep now...

Should i or should i not...???

Things just happen sometime just like went i'm at my camp so many things happen just like the fire... and yesterday just come out from confinement cause of the water bag... btw i was not happy with  the SGT after all cause he suck ... he trying to act big in-front of every one... trying to show his power to as... if he continue to do this i think i will mack sure he will regrade what he did to me...!!!

THANK YOU ALL THE FRIENDS WHO CAME TO MY BIRTHDAY PARTY YESTERDAY...

Thankz to Jerome Yap, Victor Chew, Da Wei, Hong Ming, Wei Liang, Jin Ren, Pei Ru, Xue Li, Calvin, Jia Yi, Avian Ong, Lieng Heng, joyce Ang, Cerine, Mattew for coming to my house for the birthday celebration...

And Special thankz to the following friend who wrote a birthday wishes:
Vincent Low
Adrea あいこ
Yuenyung Stupidgirl
Fiona Lervone Tan
Xavier Lin Hui Xiang
Lau Ting Ting 사랑
Seth Ho
Carine Meow
Alvina Se Souvient
Joyce Ang
Jaybert Leow
Zakiah TheInjuredbaby
Anandar Satis Kannapathi
Priscilla Xue Man
Amanda Kee
Clement 과자 괴물
Raphael Fam
Amanda Koh
Victor Chew
Jerome Monstaa
Chua Yong Li
Jonn Choi
Jasmine's Crazyness
Chua PeiRu
Reena Ahna
Ath Ena
Mong Chu Da
Hasyiqa Osman
Yawen Zxzx Pikachuu
Xueli Karen
Achiqq Kechiiq Dragoon
Catherine Geepika
Jingyi Yeo
Angel Chan
June Jg Chua
Celine Tia
Satheeswaran Mathiyazakan
Indahh Archie
Khoo Fubing
Nurul Hafizah
Heidi Lim
Lydia Lee Jia Hua
Ruoting TanJascinta Quah
Sayhui Leong
JianHui Jesse
Wan Ting
Ikaros Jin
Pradeep Ramalingam
Sophia Ng
Yizhen Liang
Rosafina 陈慧芬
Xavier Insanity
Jeremy Tan
Subhash Subarmaniam
Aikiyo Xiiao Yun เซ็กซี่
Chye Jin Feng
Sai Som Tip
Pamela Yeo
Gavin Sin
Ng Charis
Wei Liang Kon'nichiwa
Nelson Wong
Nigel Soo JcEdge
Wen Xue

In this world there is bad and there is good, but those who are good will die first, but how ever some bad die first... Normally bad will die first...

Girl of laughter >.<

  

Girl of wonder...

Boy of thought<<<

Like couple wor ><

The boy of emo...

Boy of joys ^.^...

The girl of shy O.o...

The girl of unknown...

Girl of happiness...

Girl of thought ...

One ghost and unknown...

 25 July 2010 I drink... With Jin Ren, Pei Rui, Hong Ming, Carine, Jai Yi, Avian Ong, Wei liang. with ke le... but think this is the last wine for me this year... but still got this two cat... hiz ... war on the east... soon... i will be in there i think... 

By the WAY sad ... the most fear coming to me that is wen i go in NS that time my grand ma will ... but hope it won happen...

sad sad sad!!! :( grandma in hospital seen yesterday... don know what to do now everything changing ... everyone that close to me are leaving now and then... emotionally gone up very high this few day... even turning to bad boi this time round... X:

Guss what this few thing is more then 1000kg and it's all carry up by three person only including me... And it takes more then an hr to put this thing up...

After the work i go meet Wei Liang, Hong Ming, Lian Heng and Mathew. Then we go play left 4 death for an hour...

Then now just came back from Cine-leisure now going sleep ...

Few day ago wile i'm working i saw this animal... the animal is so soft the u can use one leaf to kill it... But is so cute^^

going to ns at 16 sep

Today my heart dame pain from morning till now...

BIG NEWS!!! To all ppl in DMG temple jason just had a accident a few hr ago!!! now at CH hospital...!!! the accidence just took place today at evening... Will he is working whit the other lorry... 

Another day just pass... Don know what happen to the world 2 day ago i dream that i kill my frenz... then i was like WTF why i dream of that... But one thing is what i dream will come true... Cause i fell that what i dream, like what i dream before somehow will sure come... but hopefully this won come true... :X

Today my mum receive one call from my sister teacher... Saying that she did something that shouldn't be done... Then the teacher is going to send a warning letter, then i was like WTF!!! What did my sister do then my mum tell me that she slapped one boy but not hardly then i was like wanna scold my sister ... Why she so stupid do those thing that she shouldn't do by the way i also feel that is the boy a gay... Lolz... Hiz... What to say... Who call her to so stupid, people call her to slap then she go slap... But too sad to day never see her wen i reach home is already 9 plus at night... I think tomorrow she sure get it from me...

Just now look at the facebook i found this : People has a different character and attitude from the others. They'll have people whom they love & hate. No matter who they are, you have to accept the fact that they are like this. I agreed that what she say is true but sometime fate will change everything but fate is in our hand you can change it  too...


Then i felt that this few day i was like only playing game only... Hiz.. What to do??? Leg was injured plus my hand also what to do this all fate... Now is 1:30am my dad just came back from his work... I also felt that my dad is working so hard just to keep this family grow... But at the same time i think he still don know about my sister thing... Don know wanna tell a not i think let it be ba... Dame sian... Everything down here is all emotionally advice... Hiz got to sleep le... Nitez to those reader who read my blog... ^^

Today just had a fall while running at the park near my house, this picture just  taken around 10:21pm

The emotionally in my heart

the emotionally in my heart is getting worst today... some one just open de devilness gate of me today and i sure im going to be madness plus restless today... i don know what am i doing... i just felt sad for one of my mei she is just very sad about 3 big problem that just happen on her [the family problem, sistership problem and the bgr problem]... I don't know how to help her about her house problem i really cannot do anything cause it was like something has to be gone, it will be gone... No matter how hard you try you will never change fate... And do she really want to see you like this sad??? Will she rest in peace wen she see you like this??? I don't think so ba... And about the sister you had i can onli say she just haven wake up at all... After she know every things that happen around you if she still cannot wake up her mind i think she is hopeless... About your BGR it need time to let things change, but you can make things go fast and slow just that how you gonna do it... I don't really hope all this things happen to you even if i'm not your real kor but i onli wish if i had a change i will wish to take your pain away forever and ever... but i cannot do anything at all... All i can do is to let you be more happy that all... Something got to say... Years's ago I've made a swear for all my godship(Gans) that is never let you all cry or sad or do anything stupid... Hiz... tired of typing any more words... Just wanna end this world once and for all...

Just found some thing interesting today about Love...

Just found some thing interesting today at facebook...

Someone wrote this:

Love, doesnt needs money. Being romantic without buying anything is the
best. Showing your love & care by sincerity. Thats the best
solution...

But love is not just this, it also need something call trust other than this, it still need something the 4 item that call sugar, spice, salt and bitter...

Most of the people go for the sugar first, but they all end at bitter. Some people go for bitter first but end at sugar. Some of the people will think love doesn't need to care about the age, but some might. Some cares about the face, but some don't, some scare to tell them, but some dare to say it. But do they really knows Wat's love is??? All i can say some just love for nothing, and some really love the partner till one day also cannot don see his or her lover... 


But always, people will forgot about the promises they had made for themselves and do the same mistake again, that's why the partner will break up with his or her partner. But after some time they realist that he or she thinks that cannot live without  the other partner, then they go back to the partner, and tell them that they still love him or her, but the sad things are the other partner had already had a boyfriend or girlfriend, then he or she will think that "Why at the past i don't give him/her another change to change.!?" . Then that is the time he or she realist that he or she had madded the wrong answer.


But still, people chose not to be good towards his or her partner, then that makes it the words break. Some chose to do things in a hurry then a new born life will be created by them, some will be evil by killing the new life that they have made, but the other partner don't wan the life to be gone like this, but some lover will both chose to let go of the new life, but some couple will wan to let the new born life to be born, but all this will make it to be the sin that they made.


But some will make the love to be like a dish of food that they wan to cook, if cook too much it will not be nice to eat, if cook too less also not nice to eat, so they will need to cook it just nice. But for me love is just like a potato in the BBQ, cause if you BBQ it for awhile only it teats not nice, if you BBQ it just as good as u thought it will be just good, but if you BBQ the potato to much you might trow it away, but only if people tells you that "If BBQ too much just cut off the black part, you still can eat it.", but that the time that you have remember that you had just trowed the potato away... Just like love, at first you both stead, then you felt that just good as you thought, then after for a long time you think this is not good as you thought, then you try to give more, then you try to give more,then you felt that you give too much then you feel like breaking up with him/her, then you two break up... After a long long time, you feel that you still love  him/her then you go back to her that time then he/she rejected you. Then you will felt that why didn't you make the right thought...


But in this world there is nothing call 4ever cause everything will come to the end, no matter love, friendship, family or works, everything will end cause life is always like this, no matter what you will still die... 


That why someone wrote this;


Yesterday is, but just a day,
Tomorrow a vision of hope,
Looks for today, wile it's life...


or

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.
That's why it's called the PRESENT...

or

Yesterday is past
Tomorrow is future
Today is today...

But they all means the same today is the best cause you will never know what will happen next...

By the way i just brought a new adult EZ-link Yesterday 12 May '10

Thinking of the future... Will it happen or will it just end like that... I onli know that in in year:2015 Singapore will be the world first wireless country... By that year Singapore MRT will also fully done... and the handphone of everyone will not use GPS in Singapore... But will the day come or will it just end at 2012??? I hope we will not just end at 2012...Btw if it just end at 2012 then if i go in NS this year by that year i will just come out of the camp only... Then that will be so sad... X.X... Hiz... Let's thing of what will we do for the next min...

Thinking of the pass... Thing has to be done, my mei disowned me years ago... But our mei is still there but just that i and the Mei had lost contact, years ago hopeing that she will come back to me... But i have been wating for years... Still no sound no music... What to say let fate do the final word ba...

Thinking of now... Today is also a bad day... Too emo already, too evil, too much angriness today... Wanna bet someone up, but cannot cause i promises someone not to do any stupid things, so have to bear that in mind. Now is 9.42pm, nothing to do... Also no one look at my blog at all... If got should say something at my ShoutMix... ^ ^ Now watching some show by the name of 终极三国... By the way days ago i looked at someone FaceBook and i found this very nice :

You may not have ever seen me
But you kn0w that I am here.
You can feel me in your heart
As you enter each new day.
I will always be there for you
I am your friend.
Someone to share the good times
As well as the bad.
I make no judgments by what you say
I just listen with my heart and
Hope to be of help in anyway I can.
I will be there for you now and forever
And always please remember
I am your friend!
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True friendship isn't seen with the eyes, it is felt with the heart.
When there is trust, understanding, loyalty, and sharing.
True friendship is a rare feeling, but when it is found
It has profound impact on our well-being, strength, and character.
True friendship does not need elaborate gifts
Or spectacular events in order to be valuable or valued.
To ensure long-lasting quality and satisfaction,
True friendship only needs a few key ingredients:
Undying loyalty, unmatched understanding, unsurpassed trust,
Deep and soulful secrets, and endless sharing.
These ingredients, mixed with personality and a sense of humor,
Can make a friendship last a lifetime!
This is just a thank you, my friend, for all the wonderful and colorful
Special ingredients You've brought to my life!
Thanks so much for everything.


I find this very interesting cause this mean alot to me then i got one more over here:
The ABCs of Friendship:
A true friend:
Accepts you for who you are,
believes in you,
Calls you just to say, "Hi!"
Doesn't give upon you,
Envisions the best for you,
Forgives your mistakes,
Give unconditionally,
Help you,
Invites you over,
Jokes with you,
Keep you dose at heart,
Likes you for who you are,
Mass be good to you,
Never judges without reason,
Offers support,
Picks you up,
Quiets your fears,
Raises your spirits,
Says nice things about you,
Tells you the truth,
Understands you,
Values you,
Walks beside you,
"X"-plains thing you don't understand,
Yells when you won't listen and
Zaps you back to reality!


There is one more:
1+1= 2 eyes searching for u,
4+1= 5 senses missing u,
12+12= 24 hours thinking of u,
3+4= 7 days in week i care for u.
1+11= 12 months as I do love u...

Years pass things change even my dearest one had left me... My good brother Li Sheng are going to NS soon... Hope to see them soon... But it's so sad all my frenz' some go to NS le... some go poly... some go higher nitec... Wat to say it's call fate ba... Don have GF friend all going NS... me waiting for NS... From feb till now... Hiz... dame sad... Tired of playing game... Tired of staying indoor and outdoor... Tired of everything...

Today[30 March 2010] at the morning @ BLK91 Zion Road(near Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel wile eating with one of my frenz... I found this some sot of too... @ my Lor Mee... I think it's a Flea then my frenz say it's a cockroach...??? So... Guys and girl if you were to go there please take note of this Lor Mee store... More info of the location can go to this web-side: 

http://www.onemap.sg/?SearchVal=91%20ZION%20ROAD&LW:Y&wO5d:JchIa_c,IYYII_R,Jbafh_R,IYacc_a,a

Then after that we go to my frenz aunt house to help out to bring thins to a big lorry to the other house then we waited till his aunt husband frenz come then we start to bring thing up by the way we need to walk up the stair to the forth story... We went up and down bring things big one and small ones even fright but we are just four person then we were like went up and down for about 20~30times the stair then went we reach there we were lucky that there's lift to go up... But went we reach there it's already 11pm plus then we reach the other house then after we put the things because we are sot of too noisily then the next door ah beng was very angry then come to us then after my frenz and his aunt to said sorry afew time then the ah Beng go back to sleep... Then after that went i reach i foung this:

 My right hand

 My left hand

It was so fun that i help my frenz...  Hahas... By the way now is very late le 2.59AM going to sleep soon... Dame tired Thankz to one and all who read my share of yesterday... Hope you all have fun...